Rumination #1

MONEY, SEX, FAMILY, FRIENDS, COMMERCE

I have my mom and I love her and want to do the best I can for her health and happiness. I love my Bonnie and I’m grateful for help, energy, and happiness. Bonnie is a strong, generous, loving woman. I am a little man. I don’t have much to offer, but I’ll give you what I’ve got. I’ll offer up what I’ve got. It’s not much. There’s not a lot of interest in it. But, it’s yours if you want it. The trick with the world is to give it something that it wants. It’s good to live for yourself and your vision of things. It’s good to be true to your own vision, but the world wants what it wants, and worldly success has to do with giving it something that it wants. The world doesn’t care about me. The world isn’t looking to reward me or anybody else for being a nice guy. The world rewards confirmation of itself. I’m a homosexual. I don’t have a lot of time to spend being a homosexual, being sexual, pursuing sex. I don’t have a lot of time and energy left over after working my full time job, doing for mom, and meeting my own rudimentary needs. A lot of things in my life get left undone. It’s not a pretty picture. My house is a mess. I have cleanliness and clutter issues. I don’t do a bang up job of taking care of myself and my home. Believe me, I would like to do better. If I knew how to do better, I would. Write, write, write. I love to write. It’s good for me, and I like doing it. It’s not always easy to do. Writing doesn’t always come easily to me, but I like it. It would be nice to get it all together. It would be nice to be a together kind of person. Home wise. Friend wise. Lover wise. Sex wise. Family wise. Art wise. Money wise. Work wise. It would be so cool to be a together kind of guy. One of the cardinal rules of life is to work with what you’ve got. Most people want more from their lives, but we all have to work with what we’ve got, even while we endeavor to get more. It’s not a matter of convincing the world that I’m a nice guy. I’m not that nice. I can be a real prick. Not as bad a prick as Barack Obama or Scott Pelley, but a prick nonetheless. The world doesn’t reward the people in it just for being nice. Steve Jobs was not a particularly nice guy. He was a prick, and didn’t really mind being a prick to get what he wanted, to fulfill his vision. Visionary. Visionary man. Man with values. Insight. Drive. Motivation. Edgy. Prick. It’s nice to have a vision. It’s nice to have convictions. It’s nice to feel strongly about stuff. It’s nice to do what you believe in, to live the way you want to live. We all want to follow our bliss, and we all do to some extent. But, we also want and need to earn a living. Give us this day our daily bread. We have to give the world something it wants, so that it will give us some of the things that we want and need. We all spend a lot of our lifetime trying to cajole the world into giving us more of what we want and need. And, the world isn’t always sympathetic with what the poor, lonely soul longs for. The trick of commerce is to give the world something that it wants and will pay for. It isn’t always easy to know what the world wants. One doesn’t necessarily have the knowledge, skills, and resources to meet the world’s demands. Supply and demand. I have something you want. If you compensate me fairly, I will share it with you. If I don’t receive fair compensation, I will withhold my goods and services from you. If you want to consume what I have to offer, you must compensate me fairly for it. Economics 101. The trick is not to make the world love me. The trick is to figure out what the world wants, and what I have the desire and ability to provide for compensation. The way of the world. The way of life. The way of living in the world. I might not be of the world, but I’m living in it and I’d better learn how. For my own good. Learning how to live for one’s own good and the good of family and friends. One’s own good. Living for oneself and one’s own people. It’s enough to live successfully for oneself and one’s own people, never mind living for the planet. Fuck the planet. The planet will take care of itself, just like I have to take care of myself.

Bible Lesson 4/2/17

BIBLE, UNREALITY, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

Unreality:

Rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the Lord your God (Joel 2).

error--Behold, I am against them that prophesy false dreams, saith the Lord, and do tell them, and cause my people to err by their lies, and by their lightness (Jeremiah 23).

truth--A true witness delivereth souls (Proverbs 14).

help--I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee (Isaiah 41).

Christ--Awake up, my glory (Psalms 57).

safety--When I said, My foot slippeth; thy mercy, O Lord, held me up (Psalms 94).  Consciousness constructs a better body when faith in matter has been conquered (Eddy, 1906, p. 425).

understanding--Turn thou us unto thee, O Lord, and we shall be turned (Lamentations 5).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.

Bible Lesson 3/26/17

BIBLE, REALITY, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

Reality:

That which we have seen and heard declare we unto you, that ye also may have fellowship with us (I John 1).

light--God is light, and in him is no darkness at all (I John 1).

life--The gift of God is eternal life (Romans 6).

repentance--I will have mercy, and not sacrifice:  for I am not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance (Matthew 9).

deliverance--The Lord my God will enlighten my darkness.  For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall (Psalms 18).

salt--Ye are the salt of the earth (Matthew 5).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.

Bible Lesson 3/19/17

BIBLE, MATTER, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

Matter:

And ye shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I am the Lord your God, and none else:  and my people shall never be ashamed (Joel 2).

vanity--What iniquity have your fathers found in me, that they are gone far from me, and have walked after vanity, and are become vain? (Jeremiah 2).

ark--When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him (Isaiah 59).

rock--We must forsake the foundation of material systems, however time-honored, if we would gain the Christ as our only Saviour (Eddy, 1906, p. 326).

rebellion--Jesus saith unto him, Rise, take up thy bed, and walk.  And immediately the man was made whole, and took up his bed, and walked (John 5).

law--In proportion as matter loses to human sense all entity as man, in that proportion does man become its master (Eddy, 1906, p. 369).

camera--The crude creations of mortal thought must finally give place to the glorious forms which we sometimes behold in the camera of divine Mind, when the mental picture is spiritual and eternal. . . .  Matter disappears under the microscope of Spirit (Eddy, 1906, p. 264).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.

Bible Lesson 3/12/17

BIBLE, SUBSTANCE, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

Substance:

The goodness of God endureth continually (Psalms 52).

glory--The glory of the Lord shall endure for ever:  the Lord shall rejoice in his works (Psalms 105).

human need--And she said, Thine handmaid hath not any thing in the house, save a pot of oil. . . .  And he said, Go, sell the oil, and pay thy debt, and live thou and thy children of the rest (II Kings 4).

beauty--When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, Lord, will I seek (Psalms 27).

treasure--Where your treasure is, there will your heart be also (Matthew 6).

body--Silver and gold have I none; but such as I have give I thee: . . .  And he took him by the right hand and lifted him up: . . .  And he leaping up stood, and walked, and entered with them into the temple, walking, and leaping, and praising God (Acts 3).

church--The substance of all devotion is the reflection and demonstration of divine Love, healing sickness and destroying sin (Eddy, 1906, p. 241).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.

Bible Lesson 3/5/17

BIBLE, MAN, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

Man:

Thy testimonies have I taken as an heritage for ever:  for they are the rejoicing of my heart (Psalms 119).

essence--Man is spiritual and perfect (Eddy, 1906, p. 475).

eternity--The Lord possessed me in the beginning of his way. . . .  Then I was by him, as one brought up with him, and I was daily his delight, rejoicing always before him (Proverbs 8).

sour grapes--If we learn that nothing is real but the right, we shall have no dangerous inheritances, and fleshly ills will disappear (Eddy, 1906, p. 228).

born again--Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God (John 3).

immortality--Weep not. . . .  Arise.  And he that was dead sat up, and began to speak.  And he delivered him to his mother (Luke 7).

revelation--Divine Science rolls back the clouds of error with the light of Truth, and lifts the curtain on man as never born and as never dying, but as coexistent with his creator (Eddy, 1906, p. 557).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.

Understanding Democrat Depravity

DONALD, DEPLORABLES, HISTORY, DEPRAVITY

O Lord! What a world. I love Donald Trump, his people, and his supporters. I am a Trump supporter and a deplorable. Can we survive the storm? Can we resist all the hatred and violence coming from the Democrats? I don’t know. I would like to think so. But, I honestly don’t know if we’re strong and cohesive enough to do it. The Democrats are depraved and determined to rule. They are determined to have their way in the world, and I don’t know if Donald and the Deplorables are strong and smart enough to resist and defeat them. It isn’t enough to be right in this awful world. It is good to be right, but we need to be wise as serpents. The enemy is not so strong as he is wicked, devious, determined, and deadly. It is necessary to have an understanding of error to defeat it. Not to understand error is to be fooled and tricked into falling for it. Error tricks its victims into destroying themselves, thereby achieving evil ends easily and unseen. Democrats are good at tricking their enemies into self-destruction. Can Donald and the Deplorables turn the tide of Democrat treachery, deceit, and despotism? Did Donald’s election signal the beginning of a new age, or will he and the Deplorables be relegated to history’s long list of totalitarian victims? Whether the Donald accomplishes the good he has pledged himself to or not, I will always resist Democrat depravity and dissimulation.




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