Schmucks like I

SCHMUCK, TWEET, GEM, PLATFORM

The point is to say things that matter. The point is to go public with my private thoughts that matter. What's the best platform for a thinker and writer like I? Blogs are old hat, aren't they? Well, I'm kind of old hat too. Maybe the blog is where an old-hat kind of guy like I belongs. Should I be a tweeter? Would tweeting make any difference to me or anyone else? Are there people out there, waiting with bated breath for my verbal gems? Ah, I don't think so. The point is to step up and speak up. The point is to go public. Everyone else does. Why shouldn't I? My life matters! And, media provides the means and the opportunity for even schmucks like I to have our say.

Thinking about sex.

SEX, GUYS, WRITING, TALKING

I don't like the idea of just writing for myself. I don't like the idea of writing badly and putting it on display. I don't like the idea of showing the whole world what a putz I am, but it's better than doing nothing at all. I'd rather be a putz than a zero. I'm getting old. I don't have a lot of time left. I want to make the best of it. I don't want to spend the rest of my life not telling you who I am. I want to spend the rest of my life being myself. Oh, yuck! Oh, boring! Oh, stupid! Oh, well.

Blogging is already old hat, but it's a step up for me. A step out. A turning of my face toward the world. Coming out. Not hiding out. What do I have to hide? Nothing. And, do you know why? Because no one cares. No one gives a damn about anything I do. I don't want to hide. I want to make the most of things. I want to be myself. I want to make my best effort.

I'm a talker. I like to talk. I like to tell you what I'm thinking about. I like to tell you about what I did today, and what I think about it. One of the wonders of the world is how it can't tell me what to be. There may be things that the world will fight tooth and nail to prevent me from being, but it can't tell me what to be. The world will give me all kinds of reasons why I can't be or do something, but it can't tell me what to be. I don't want to be perfect in my own eyes or in the world's eyes. I'm tired of trying to be perfect. I'm tired of trying to impress people with my qualifications. Qualified for what? Who cares! No one. Me too.

I don't want to impress you with my writing. I do want to write to you. I want to tell you what's on my mind. I want to tell you what I did today. I don't really care whether I impress you or not. I just want to make the effort to tell you. In a world that's falling apart, the time to be shy about talking has passed. I want to talk to you. I don't want to be perfect for you. I want to talk to you. I want to tell you what I did today. I want to tell you about the handsome, sexy guy I saw this morning at Starbucks. I don't know his name yet, but I want to. He's married and has a daughter. He has a low voice.  He's big. He's not a skinny little guy. I've never seen him with anyone. He always comes to Starbucks on his own. I don't want to see him with his wife or daughter. I just want to see him. I just want him. I don't want to be his best friend. I don't necessarily want to be his friend at all. I'd like to masturbate with him, suck his dick, and make out with him. That's all. Not a big deal. I don't want to take a lot of his time, or waste a lot of mine. I don't have a lot of time to waste. I don't have a lot of energy to use. I want to tell you about the hunky guys I like to look at. I don't want to be a great writer. I just want to write. I don't want to be perfect. I just want to talk to you.

I want you to know that I will get up this morning looking forward to the handsome guys I will see throughout the day. Mom and I are going to the Wareham Walmart this morning. We will see handsome young men working there. We will see good-looking guys shopping there. Guys I can think about having sex with.

Bible Lesson 12/3/17

BIBLE, CREATOR, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

God the Only Cause and Creator:

O Lord, how manifold are thy works! (Psalms 104). . . .  Come and see the works of God (Psalms 66).

good--My presence shall go with thee, and I will give thee rest (Exodus 33).

peace--I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears (Psalms 34).

health--To all mankind and in every hour, divine Love supplies all good (Eddy, 1906, p. 494).

immortality--God does not cause man to sin, to be sick, or to die (Eddy, 1906, p. 206).

vastness--In the vast forever, in the Science and truth of being, the only facts are Spirit and its innumerable creations (Eddy, 1906, p. 478).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.

Bible Lesson 11/26/17

BIBLE, WITCHCRAFT, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

Ancient and Modern Necromancy, alias Mesmerism and Hypnotism, Denounced:

At midday, O king, I saw in the way a light from heaven, above the brightness of the sun, shining round about me and them which journeyed with me (Acts 26).

stand--Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil (Ephesians 6).

temptation--Get thee hence, Satan:  for it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve (Matthew 4).

cross--Rejoice not, that the spirits are subject unto you; but rather rejoice, because your names are written in heaven (Luke 10).

malpractice--There came a viper out of the heat, and fastened on his hand. . . .  And he shook off the beast into the fire, and felt no harm (Acts 28).

victory--The cement of a higher humanity will unite all interests in the one divinity (Eddy, 1906, p. 571).

spirituality--The fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace (James 3).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.

Bible Lesson 11/19/17

BIBLE, IDENTITY, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

Soul and Body:

The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me:  thy mercy, O Lord, endureth for ever (Psalms 138).

sun--The LORD God is a sun and shield:  the LORD will give grace and glory:  no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly (Psalms 84).

body--Identity is the reflection of Spirit. . . .  Soul is the substance, Life, and intelligence of man, which is individualized, but not in matter
(Eddy, 1906, p. 477).

stamina--I will go in the strength of the Lord God (Psalms 71).

light--Man is the idea of Spirit; he reflects the beatific presence, illuming the universe with light (Eddy, 1906, p. 266).

illumination--This Soul-sense comes to the human mind when the latter yields to the divine Mind (Eddy, 1906, p. 85).

freedom--Be not conformed to this world:  but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God (Romans 12).

coexistence--Man coexists with and reflects Soul, God, for man is God's image (Eddy, 1906, p. 120).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.

Bible Lesson 11/12/17

BIBLE, IMMORTALS, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

Mortals and Immortals:

And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof:  but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever (I John 2).

man--Mortals will disappear, and immortals, or the children of God, will appear as the only and eternal verities of man (Eddy, 1906, p. 476).

physical--Waking to Christ's demand, mortals experience suffering (Eddy, 1906, p. 22).

moral--Hear thou, my son, and be wise, and guide thine heart in the way (Proverbs 23).

progress--For thus saith the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel; In returning and rest shall ye be saved (Isaiah 30).

spiritual--When he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him (Luke 15).

God--Now unto the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only wise God, be honour and glory for ever and ever.  Amen (I Timothy 1).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.

Bible Lesson 11/5/17

BIBLE, ADAM, CHRISTIAN SCIENCE

Adam and Fallen Man:

As in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive (I Corinthians).

man--In this Science, we discover man in the image and likeness of God (Eddy, 1906, p. 548).

woman--Loose thyself from the bands of thy neck, O captive daughter of Zion (Isaiah 52).

serpent--Material sense does not unfold the facts of existence; but spiritual sense lifts human consciousness into eternal Truth (Eddy, 1906, p. 95).

heredity--Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents:  but that the works of God should be made manifest in him (John 9).

life--Father, I thank thee that thou hast heard me.  And I knew that thou hearest me always: . . .  And when he thus had spoken, he cried with a loud voice, Lazarus, come forth (John 11).

Christ--If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature:  old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new (II Corinthians).

References

Eddy, M. B.  (1906).  Science and health with key to the scriptures.  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Board of Directors.

Holy bible (King James version).  (n. d.).  Boston, MA:  The Christian Science Publishing Society.